tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post2141385913693822724..comments2024-03-17T12:36:51.212-04:00Comments on Caitlyn's Masks: Things do not change...Caitlyn Maskedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02732033913089350905noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-84798856082178911902013-08-04T09:05:16.383-04:002013-08-04T09:05:16.383-04:00For instance; Guy rummages through his roommate...For instance; Guy rummages through his roommate's closet looking for some weed... comes across a big box with a body suit in it... tries it on to see what all the fuss is about and finds out that it has a timed lock that will keep him in it for two days.. the roommate's brother walks into their apartment and seeing a beautifully sexy naked woman puts his moves on her... the horrified guy in the suit wants to deny it, but the body suit encouragement to act like the sexy woman he appears to be (pleasure?) and discouragement when he acts otherwise (pain?)... when the roommate comes home he finds his friend kneeling down and blowing his brother and knows that he has to keep up the charade or his brother will kill him (for having the body suit in the first place and/or for letting a guy in a suit go down on him)... so he ramps up the suits encouragement/discouragement routines ensuring that his friend will remain the slutty sexy submissive girl for the rest of the weekend. <br /><br />I think with the right image that could make a good cap. Normally when I consider a scene like that, Caitlyn would get a sexual energy that would drive me on to make it. But now? Nothing. I have the same passion to make that into a full story and cap as I would to do my niece's math homework. And if I make a cap without that passion running through me it could never be great... at best it would be passable, and at worse it would be flat and as uninteresting as reading this write-up. <br /><br />So... while I hate to disagree, I don't that Caitlyn will come back. <br />Caitlyn Maskedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02732033913089350905noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-80405734861261972142013-08-04T09:05:05.266-04:002013-08-04T09:05:05.266-04:00I can see where you are coming from Alectra... but...I can see where you are coming from Alectra... but as time continues to march on I'm more and more sure that Caitlyn won't ever fully come back. As Dee put it in an earlier comment, my new routine wasn't 'routine' yet. Getting up at the god awful early hour was throwing me off. I'd be dead tired when I got back from work and honestly for the first week I'd just veg out in front of the television. I barely had 'time' to get in front of the computer, let alone give any time to Caitlyn. The second week was better, but I still didn't get into any kind of rhythm. What I did with my free time was more or less random and unstructured. <br /><br />But this past week, I've become more accustomed to my new routine. Work is still fluctuating, but my time away from work has become more or less standard. I get home, I get my travel coffee mug and lunch kit into the dishwasher, I change clothes, I sit in front of the tv for a bit, then I hit up the task that I have planned. Some days that was looking for a new car, some days that was looking for a new phone, but some days that was getting some seat time at the computer. At no time did Caitlyn come into my routine. It's not just that she didn't have the opportunity... I didn't have the desire. <br /><br />I can understand thinking that losing Caitlyn in the virtual world would help bring her out in the real world. After all she was a huge part of me for a long time. But at the same time it's not as though I felt like a less than complete person before she came along and enamored me. So by the same token, I'm not less of a complete person with her gone. If we go with the thought that Caitlyn was a distinct persona that coexisted in my head along with me, then she has simply left. Any desires or thoughts I have of hers are more echo than reality. <br /><br />I WAS falling into a 'meh' state with Caitlyn before this job dropped from heaven into my lap. I was finding it hard to make good and interesting caps and was slowing down my production to keep from making a whole series of bad or uninteresting caps, but Caitlyn was still firmly there. She was guiding my interests and making me want to produce those sexy thought provoking caps. Now there's no one pushing those desires through me. <br /><br />I believe if I put my mind to it, I could still make a cap. I could even probably make good ones, although I doubt I could make something spectacular. It's not as though I lost the creative side of myself, and I can still construct a TG themed story. <br /><br />(comment is to long... broken into two)<br />Caitlyn Maskedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02732033913089350905noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-70034738457636682732013-08-04T08:30:37.109-04:002013-08-04T08:30:37.109-04:00You know... now that I go back and re-read what yo...You know... now that I go back and re-read what you posted, I don't see how I thought you meant for someone to take over and use this as their own creative outlet. Sorry about that!<br /><br />Having a care taker come on board sounds like the best idea. I don't imagine it would require much effort... just logging in and making sure it's still there occasionally. And maybe rarely coming in and making a post or two.Caitlyn Maskedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02732033913089350905noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-67685141817383113192013-08-04T08:27:47.752-04:002013-08-04T08:27:47.752-04:00I remember getting that feeling when Petra walked ...I remember getting that feeling when Petra walked away. Looking at her departure made me consider how long I'd be Caitlyn. At the time I was in full Caitlyn mode and couldn't imagine just walking away... now I think I understand what she was going through better. <br /><br />Just as everyone has wished me well, I only want whats best for you. If that's continuing being the sexy and mysterious 'Mistress Simone' forever, then that's great. If that's walking away and becoming fully 'Mark', then I'll be equally happy for you!Caitlyn Maskedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02732033913089350905noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-81848003304896702812013-07-29T19:36:56.399-04:002013-07-29T19:36:56.399-04:00Well I think that if you have your mind focused on...Well I think that if you have your mind focused on other tasks and filling "that void" that you had before, is more or less normal that you start to feel Calvin and less Caitlyn. That's because probably - I would consider this about it, anyway - Caitlyn still holds a presence in the Virtual World and not really making an appearance in the Real World, holding a mental gap, a huge gap, between your real you and your virtual you. Sometimes as we have our feminine and masculines sides clashing together it would be really easy if you star to act like Caitlyn in Real Life. Probably with small acts, as you try your best to bring a mask. You stated it clearly before.<br /><br />Then I think this whole "superheroine drama" or double personality affects one person when their true feelings are mentally repressed. It's not that easy as: <br /><br />I switch off, switch on between two states. I've read many posts and learn about you through them, and if you have done sone. We can clearly see the line between a Calvin mood and a Caitlyn one.<br /><br />Or just me rambling different aspects about it. I think this should be to consider in a better thought post, from where we draw the line between our personas or second realities?. In the end it will pay a mental toll trying to grab two different worlds and mix them together in a single reality only that there is so much time in one day to try to be two different persons. So that must be where you are coming from - and yes I have read the TMI warning :) - <br /><br />I'm not sure if you have come to the point of meh! as you enjoy the creative process, surely the sexual energy you talk about is getting aroused, and living the fantasy. From that you have reached the meh! only because deep inside you are thinking about what if Caitlyn would be the Real Life and Calvin a second aspect of it. Now that would be interesting in my opinion... ;)<br /><br />In my case - which I heartily have to say thank you for those words in my last post - I have reached the meh! in both. Sure I can force myself and still write about it, but I won't enjoy it. I'm trying to give the finishing touches to some stories I wrote a long time ago - unfinished in some aspects - and just that. But nothing absolutely new!<br /><br />I'm sure that given the time, Caitlyn will come back whether you like it or not. She likes this place and you showed it to us, everyday :)<br /><br />Hugs and Kisses AlectraAlectrahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05098726295590695381noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-83653895496389908002013-07-29T15:07:37.689-04:002013-07-29T15:07:37.689-04:00Honestly, When I suggested someone to take over yo...Honestly, When I suggested someone to take over your blog, I didn't mean for someone to move over to your blog and post their own work or anything like that. I meant for someone to take over your blog and keep an eye on it. That's why I said "joint control" since you can do that with blogger.<br /><br />Dee's suggestion of Care-taker is exactly the same thing as my suggestion, except that I tried to throw out various idea's for you to use along side it or instead of it. Which ever sounds like it would fit more for you.<br /><br />When I suggested that sort of thing, I was of course throwing my hat in the ring to help out and keep an eye on the blog. I would love to help you out if I can and I'm usually around. Jenniferhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08278508284141041193noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-80460189342626538382013-07-29T14:23:20.195-04:002013-07-29T14:23:20.195-04:00This comment has been removed by the author.Jenniferhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08278508284141041193noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3638398317329574756.post-4394822951226571682013-07-29T04:10:31.353-04:002013-07-29T04:10:31.353-04:00I know for a fact you can speak to someone who wil...I know for a fact you can speak to someone who will be a caretaker should you decide to go that route. You might have already had it suggested. Send me a note when you get a chance.<br /><br />Everything you speak of, I fear. I fear one day I'll look down and want to leave Simone behind. I don't know when but I know it will happen. We all change and it's no different. As I said before, I'm happy and you are happy.Mistress Simonehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03830472323307586514noreply@blogger.com