I GOT A JOB!!

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I'm not going to beat around the bush and be coy here...

I GOT MY FIRST JOB AS A NURSE!!!

As excited as I am, I keep hearing this song:

At Last by Etta James

It has been a wickedly long journey to get here.  Back in 2006 I left my last really serious job.  I've held several jobs since then, but they were either place holder jobs while I looked for something better or menial jobs while I was in school.  So it's been seven long, toiling, soul crushing, years since I've been a productive member of society.

And dear God, it feels so good to get here at last!

When I got the job offer over the phone I was jumping up and down for joy for a good ten minutes.  I think my celebration broke something in the floor as it now has a creak in it... but damn it I don't care.  I'm Employed! AS A NURSE!!!

I felt joyous when I graduated from high school.  When I graduated from college with my photography degree I felt exuberant.  When I graduated from college with my nursing degree I was ecstatic.  When I got my license I was over the moon. If you add up all those feelings of happiness and joy and multiply them by ten, you will wouldn't get close to how happy I am right now.

I've heard the saying before that it's always darkest right before the dawn.  Well I had no idea how true that is.  You see one of the reasons I went into nursing was that it's was supposed to be easy to get a job.  I'm sure you've heard the same things as me... there's a nursing shortage.  The medical field is the fasted growing area of new employment.  Nursing is something that can't be shipped over seas.... so when I went for months without getting a job I honestly thought that it had to be me.  There was something about me that just said 'unhireable'.  That feeling didn't just come around with every letter of rejection... it didn't just come around after every unsuccessful interview... it was constantly there beating me down.

Maybe this feeling will slowly fade... maybe I'll return to my normal state of mind... but for now I can't get this smile off my face!  I'm laughing all the time.  They sky seems brighter, music seems better, my dog seems more cuddly... everything seems better.  It's as if all the world's colors had slowly faded away over the past few years only to have them spring up ten times more saturated all at once.

I GOT MY FIRST JOB AS A NURSE!!!

I know I've shared a lot of details here, but I'm afraid that I'm going to keep most of the details of the job to myself.  The job is unique enough that saying what type of Nursing job I got would be very identifiable.  But know that while this isn't exactly the perfect job, it's good enough to send me over the moon every time I think about it.

I really have no idea how it's going to affect me 'Being Caitlyn'.  I started capping during the period without a 'serious' job.   Maybe my job will take over.  Maybe my new financial freedom will take me places outside of Caitlyn's world for longer periods of time.  Maybe... just maybe... being Caitlyn was a subconscious way of dealing with Calvin's failings, and now that Calvin will be having his own successes he won't need Caitlyn any more.

I just don't know.  I do know that at the very least my capping will slow down... I just won't have the same amounts of free time that I used to.  But I don't believe that I'll fully step away.  I mean how could I lave such wonderful friends that helped me through such a dark time!?

Just one more time, because it feels so damn good to shout it out like this:

I GOT MY FIRST JOB AS A NURSE!!!

Anyway... I want to thank all of your for your constant support.  You were always there to help buck me up and remind me that there actually is a light at the end of the tunnel.  I can not express how much that helped!