Sunday, February 14, 2021

The Lathe of Heaven


Dreams into reality can be a nightmare

I’M A COCK SUCKING WHORE

Not all of my dreams became reality.  I dreamed, like most people, of going to class naked or being chased by some unknown monster and that never happened.    But it was that first vivid dream in college that convinced me something was off.  I dreamed of Maggie, who I had a huge crush on, of going down on me.  I woke up knowing it would never happen because she was a through and through lesbian and going steady with Carol.  But that night at the party she drunkenly pushed me into one of the bedrooms, hushed my feeble protests, and proceeded to give me the best sexual experience of my life. 

WORSHIPING JAMES MAKES ME HAPPY

She never talked to me again.  I could see in her eyes, when we’d pass between classes, that she couldn’t believe what she did.  It all felt normal until I was writing my thesis and had another vivid dream.  This time it was more of a nightmare as I was stuck watching a drunken friend get behind the wheel, unable to stop him.  The next day the reality wasn’t the same because he died in my dream.  But I’m sure spending the next four weeks in traction was little consolation from his drunk driving crash. 

BEING SEXY FOR MY MAN IS ALL I SHOULD CARE ABOUT

When I went to the campus mental health facility and asked to talk to someone it wasn’t to try and take advantage of the situation.  Honestly, that never crossed my mind.  I just wanted something to help me have happier dreams.  James, my appointed therapist, was going for his degree but was very good already.  He made me feel calm and instead of diving right in and getting me some med to either dream positively or not dream at all, he got me to tell him the whole thing.  I guess professionally he was afraid it might be a psychotic break.  So, he chose to prove that I wasn’t changing the world with my dreams.

KEEPING EYE CONTACT WITH MY SUPERIOR WHILE I WORSHIP HIM SHOWS HIM I LOVE HIM

He said a method of hypnosis could not only direct my dreams, but it could also make them more vivid than normal.  We came up with a dream that would be helpful, obvious, and easy to disprove.  I’d dream about him being more attractive.  It was easy enough to follow along as he was your standard geeky pre-graduate therapist.  I wasn’t exactly tall or built, but my five foot ten medium built towered over his skinny five foot five. 

GRIPPING HIS COCK MAKES HIM FEEL MORE MASCULINE AND MAKES ME FEEL MORE FEMININE

I laid back on his couch as he placed the headset over my ears and guided me down into sleep.  The dream wasn’t strange at all.  We weren’t in some fantasy world, or even a different place.  I was just sitting in his cubical with the privacy curtain closed and talking about my dreams.  Except he was built like an athlete.  I’d guess he stood at six foot four and probably weight in around two hundred and fifty pounds.  All of it muscle.  I could see he had a five o’clock shadow and knew that he grew hair so fast that he’d never be rid of that.  To be honest, it gave him a rugged look.  His voice was deeper, his eyes more piercing, and most of all he was just plain more confident.  It bordered on cocky. 

KNEELING SHOWS MY SUBMISSIVENESS

When I woke up, I couldn’t find James anywhere.  It turns out that not only did he change into exactly what I saw in the dream, he was aware of it while it happened.  I found him in the bathroom just starting at himself in the mirror.  He said he’d have to process this and that we’d talk more at our next session.

MY MAKEUP SHOULD ALWAYS BE PERFECT FOR MY BOYFRIEND BECAUSE HE DESERVES IT

The next few sessions were odd.  I got the feeling that even though he was one of the most attractive people I’d ever seen in real life, James didn’t believe me.  So each session would involve a little talking but mostly was him giving me another hypnotic chant to listen to while I dreamed.  Over the next few weeks I dreamed of James already graduated and running his own clinic.  Taking the bus to his suburban office the next time was a pain, but I still showed up on time.  I dreamed of James being a complete success.  His clinic on the 35th floor of the downtown high-rise was even more of a pain to get to but it was nice to see him dress so richly with a Rolex watch, Cartier sunglasses, and Porsche key. 

I LOVE SEXUALLY PLEASING MY MAN.  MY ONLY PLEASURE COMES FROM MAKING HIM FEEL GOOD

When I finally got up the courage to ask if we could move on to helping me instead of making his life better I saw something in James’ eyes I hadn’t seen before.  Possessiveness.  It was like talking about my dreams in relation to me meant taking them away from him.  I promised him that I’d still be willing to help him out and wouldn’t tell anybody about what we’d done.  That I just wanted to make sure to not have a random nightmare and not hurt somebody. 

WHEN I’M ALLOWED TO SPEAK MY VOICE IS SMOOTH, QUIET, WORSHIPFUL, AND OH SO FEMININE

I thought James understood me.  I thought he was going to help me.  I never should have been so naïve.  My next dream was me sitting silently as various people asked me about my power and what he had done.  The only person I’d answer was James.  When I woke up I couldn’t talk about any of my experiences except for with James.  That should have been the last straw.  Sure, I couldn’t talk about it but I could at least get away from him.  I could have run.

I’M A COCK SUCKING WHORE

James took care of that at our next session.  I think this is the first time he outright lied.   Every other time he’d just dance around the truth and promise me that I’d wakeup in a better situation, never saying if it was his or my situation that would improve.  This time he said he’d undo his last bindings and let me go.  But when I woke up I saw just how much I could change things.  I had new memories.  The judge finding me to be a danger to myself or others and putting me in James’ charge.  I remembered living with him for the past three months in his palatial estate.  I even saw the legal papers sitting on his desk, tying my freedom to his signature. 

WORSHIPING JAMES MAKES ME HAPPY

We no longer waited for weekly sessions.  James got to improving even the most minute detail of his life every day.  His house, his car, his clothes, his business, his money, his patients.  He even got me to dream about politicians.  I’m not sure if President Biden wouldn’t have won, but I do know that I dreamed about the election for four days straight.  And everyday it seemed that he put some new trigger on me.  I no longer yelled at him or complained about being used.  I no longer cried and actually felt a little happy.  But I couldn’t even struggle against what James was making me do.  He took away the ability to act upon my free will and changed me into a tool he could use. 

BEING SEXY FOR MY MAN IS ALL I SHOULD CARE ABOUT

I guess it was natural that I started working on his dream girl.  He met her at some Hollywood party and she gave him the cold shoulder.  I mean she was an A-list actress after all.  But after the next day it was reported on Page Six that this sexy actress who could have anybody she wanted was now in a relationship with the famous psychologist. 

KEEPING EYE CONTACT WITH MY SUPERIOR WHILE I WORSHIP HIM SHOWS HIM I LOVE HIM

Over the next few weeks I made her over so many different ways.  I made her a sexual deviant, loving getting tied up and whipped by James.  I made her perform in porn with dozens of guys, all while James watched and even directed.  I made her so orally fixated that they couldn’t go out to eat without her slipping under the table to give him a BJ.  I gave her bigger tits, a fatter ass, longer legs, different colored hair, even a different face. 

GRIPPING HIS COCK MAKES HIM FEEL MORE MASCULINE AND MAKES ME FEEL MORE FEMININE

I’m not sure why he made me put everything back.  Maybe it was guilt.  Maybe it was realizing every time he changed her, the entire Hollywood scene changed.  All of her movies and the trajectory of her career careened all over the place.  Sometimes she was a porn start, other times she was a D-List celebrity, while others she was washed up.  So when he made me put it back to rights and got her starting in the next Marvel superhero movie again, I thought he’d go out and find another girl to start with all over. 

KNEELING SHOWS MY SUBMISSIVENESS

But of course, I was wrong.  I mean, I’m just an air headed bimbo and couldn’t possibly keep up with my man’s intellect.  It would be easier for him to just make me over.  Make me a better lover for him.  I already loved him, and he’s done so much to help me.  So, I’m not sure how long he’s been working on me, but I know we both love it when I listen to his soothing voice in my ears while I suck him off.  I not only get to be a better girlfriend, he gets to judge my new techniques first hand and make the next day’s tapes even more effective.   




source:  fuskator

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