You're Not The Boss Of Me - The Beginning

The new story has a title, a beginning, and possible a model to work from!

I thought that one advantage of no longer working, due to the migraines, was that I'd get a better chance to write.  Just some straight keyboard time.  It turns out, however, that the migraines still stop me from writing and I still have very few days open to do anything.  And like when I was working, I can still fill those times with all the tings I want to do and get done.  Writing is only one part of that.  

That being said, while it isn't as much as I'd wanted, I have written two caps and as of a couple nights ago the start of my new story.  

If you're not interested in reading about the process of writing, or want to only hit the story once its done and have absolutely no spoilers, then it's time for you to leave this post.  

Everybody here still good to go?  Good!  

One thing that had mulled around in my head since I wrote the initial post in February was a story title.  I know a lot of people write without a title in mind and only add a title once the story is done.  And I get that... the story title might come out of the story itself, especially as I add in more details or change the basic plot.  But, that being said, I work better when I think of a title and not "the office/secretary forced femme story I'm working on".  Just Dance worked because I had a title right out of the gate.  And since I made that the title of the show they'd be on, it never had the chance to change.  

Secretary?  Too simple and overt.  Office Pool?  Secretary Pool?  Too much like the Locked in Lace story.  Bossy?  Not the side of the story I want to focus on.  That's the way my thinking has worked over the last few months.  I wasn't spending a LOT of time thinking about it, but I did spend actual time thinking it through.  Then a couple weeks back it hit me.  

"You're Not The Boss Of Me!"

It sounds petulant, has the 'boss = office' vibe, and is certainly a theme that will last.  I went back to it a couple times before starting writing and I didn't come up with anything I liked more.  And as a testament to it's staying power, I started to think of this unwritten story as "You're Not The Boss Of Me!" instead of "My unwritten Secretary story." 

So a couple nights ago I went over my notes.  I know there's a lot that I'm going to add in and there's a lot that I'm going to weed out, but I like what I have so far.  Next was the writing pattern.  I gave about a half hour to thinking I'd write it as a 'Current time' followed by 'past time' back and forth style.  Kind of writing a scene out, then writing something that happened in the past that's relevant and explains something more about the 'present' story.  One big advantage to doing this is that I wouldn't have to cover the entire 'pre' story before diving into the meat of the story.  But, while I figured it would work for several parts it wasn't going to be a pattern that would be able to hold up for the entire story.  There just wasn't that much 'pre' story to work with.  

I should go over what I think of any story (at least any forced femme story), format wise.  There's the 'before' part, the setup, the initial change, dealing with the change.  

The before part is just the guy living his life.  He has no expectations that in a few hours/days/weeks/months he's going to be living the life of a woman.  I like this part as it sets up his attitudes and can set up parts that will echo later in the setup, change, or dealing with the change.  While I relish these details, I also know that many to most readers want to skip over this and just get to the 'good part'.  And writing wise, I hate putting things in that I might never get to take advantage of later.  I like the narrative adage of Chekhov's gun.  Basically it says that if you show the audience a gun in the first act, the gun should show up in final act.  If you didn't need to show the gun, then it you shouldn't show it.  Or even more basically, every element in a story must be necessary, and irrelevant elements should be removed.  In that sense, it's almost easier to write out a very basic beginning and then come back later and fill it out later if I need to 'show the gun' early.  

So that's the beginning and where I'd normally start.  The format I was thinking of would continually bounce between the before and the initial change or dealing with the change.  Later, as the story continued to develop it might change to bouncing between the setup and dealing with the change or even the initial change and dealing with the change.  But regardless, it wouldn't be sustainable and continue to be interesting.  

After dismissing that idea I was left with starting NOT at the beginning.  I just couldn't shake it.  I liked the idea of starting the story with a secretary coming to work for her ass hole boss, emphasizing her feminine nature and only revealing near the end of this 'prologue' that she's actually a man and is trying to get blackmail on this powerful man.  

That's exactly what I wrote.  I haven't re-read it and I really do want to re-read it and probably touch it up a bit before moving on, but it felt SO good to just write.  Establishing characters that would come in later, writing his/her mindset, going over just how much he/she actually does in the morning... it was FUN!  

After writing it, I thought about one thing that helped keep me motivated.  Images.  Both mental and actual images.  I think we all know here that I like little details.  It's not an expensive car, it's a BMW 760i.  It's not an expensive secretary chair, it's a Herman Miller Aeron chair.  Her keyboard, her desk, his office, his coffee drink.  And most importantly, her.  I started Just Dance with the image of Cadey Mercury so I always knew what the heroine would end up looking like.  It even helped me explain what he looked like before the transformation as I wasn't going to have him lose four inches in height and have broad shoulders turn into tiny ones.  

With that in mind, I had to decide what I wanted the secretary to look like.  And that's actually kind of rough as there are three separate bodies.   His initial body, his initial 'in disguise' body, and his 'surgically transformed' body.  My initial idea was to use the model I had in the graphic for my first post about this:

That's Megan Rain in a very erotic office/secretary film from EroticX.  Megan according to a website that goes over model/actress sizes is 99 pounds, 5 foot 2, 32-27-35 and has a B cup breast.  She looks great... but B cup doesn't work for the last stage.  And at least initially, I don't plan on her having sex until she's in that last stage.   I want the surgically altered heroine to have D cup breasts.  

So, I left Megan as my backup.  If I couldn't find another actress in a reasonable amount of time I'd use her and just imagine her with bigger breasts.  My next step was to go to pornhub and just look at 'office' and 'secretary' videos and find an actress that way.  I figured at the very least, I'd have one set of images of the actress in an office setting.  That was.... well, it was frustrating.  Far to many of those videos have what I'd call 'Porn actresses' in them.  Yes, I know it's more about personal taste than any true aesthetic, but I look at an actress like Megan here and believe she's actually naturally attractive.  She's more natural without big blown up lips, massive surgically enhanced tits, and fake tan for days.  

Without random pornhub to work from I went to what I should have started with.  My own saved collection of porn.  I mean, if I saved it it has an actress I like... right?  The first actress I came across from my collection was Lana Roy.  Compared to Megan's B cup breasts, Lana's look huge.  It turns out I might just not know how to judge cup sizes as they're only one cup up.  But she's still bigger than Megan.  119 pounds, 5 foot 4, 32-24-33, and C cup breasts.  

I followed up that choice with an image search.  I found several inspiring images of Lana that I could easily use, both just straight 'office' images and 'porntastic' images:

Ironically I realize that only the first image hints at her breast size.  At the time though, I was satisfied.  Megan was out of the running and Lana was in.  The C cup thing still bothered me, so I kept looking.  It didn't take me long to find one of my more recent discoveries;  Kaisa Nord.  Kaisa had a lot going for her size wise.  112 pounds, five foot five, 34-26-34, with 34 D cup breasts.  And her breasts do in fact look bigger than Lana's.  Best of all, she has a more... I don't know, calling her 'masculine' at all is a tragedy, but both her body and her face just come across as less overtly feminine than either Megan's or Lana's.  She also enticingly has that red hair that I fall in love with:

Now that I have the images up, I think it comes down to her wider hips and her wider jaw.  For instance, in that last image, her hips are close to the size of the guy drilling her.  Some of that is camera angle, but she does have a 34 inch waist.  And I look at a lot of images of both transgender women and cross dressing men and even those that are feminine and beautiful, you'll often notice that they have a wider jaw.  Not all, but it's common enough to note.  So while that's certainly not why Kaisa's jaw is wider, it helps to imagine her with more masculine features that she's covering up with a wig and expert level makeup.  

I think I have my winner.  My character will be, at least mentally, inspired by Kaisa Nord.  

I still need to work out where the story will end.  I have the setup, I have quite a bit that could be used in the 'before' so long as I write a corresponding scene later, I have the surgical setup, and several scenes of dealing with the transformation.  I know this story will be far FAR more sexual than Just Dance.  I just want an endpoint so that I don't waffle around as much as I did in Just Dance.  Don't get me wrong, I like how Just Dance ended up... but I'd like this to be about half its length.  I'd also like to finish it this calendar year!  

I did have a basic idea.  There's going to be a circumstance that both the boss and our heroine are stuck with him having her as a secretary for a full year.  The sexual part will come from a condition that says he can't have anybody accuse him of sexual harrassment while he later blackmails the heroine.  That leaves him with only one way to vent his sexual appetite (I've already planned on writing his wife as constantly cutting him off).  It's not going to take him long to get over his dislike of having a man dressed up as a woman (and later, surgically altered to be more feminine) giving him blow jobs and even fucking.  

That basic idea leads to the year date as being the end of the story.  Do they hate each other and part ways?  Do they start having feelings toward each other?  Is there any masculinity left in her once she's been subject to this level of feminization for a year?  Will she even see herself as masculine after all that time and after being used as a sex toy for that long?  And along the way, does she find enjoyment in the sex play?  Does she get feelings for him that conflict with the very nature of being forcibly subservient to him?  

I'm going to give the end point a little more thought.  I think next up, after re-reading and polishing what I have so far, is to write a basic beginning.  I have a studio scene in mind that will be fairly quick, but set up two characters I already have plans for, and then work into him helping his friend and his initial sets of disguise.  After that point, I really do need an end so that I can write with a time frame in mind.  

That's it for now.  I just wanted to share what I have, share that I'm moving forward on this, and get some of this out as it helps me work it through my mind.